Anonymity does nothing for me. I just get really, really awkward about getting things, from an inward perspective. Hell, I feel awkward about making meals just for myself - I've gotten to the point where if I can't benefit someone else by doing something, I won't do it. It's like the neurotic version of being charitable.
I don't mind doing specific requests, though. In a lot of ways, I'd rather have the direction, because I'm the painter with the blank canvas and a bunch of paint and get nothing done, because I've been given free reign. I crave direction.
It's not that I'm not sympathetic to squicks - I've seen/read some things that I would really, really like to unsee. But, and this is a big, hairy but; I got over it. Squicks and triggers are different animals. There is a major difference between going 'eww' and closing the window and hyperventilating/fainting/crying in the corner because of a genuine issue.
And yeah, like you say - it's the world. Bad things happen. If you can't learn to protect yourself from seeing the things that upset you, you either will eventually or you'll die of fear. Because it's not going to stop happening.
(I have been the faint-y kid, although not for the same reasons. It's no fun at all :()
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Date: 2010-12-27 04:25 pm (UTC)I don't mind doing specific requests, though. In a lot of ways, I'd rather have the direction, because I'm the painter with the blank canvas and a bunch of paint and get nothing done, because I've been given free reign. I crave direction.
It's not that I'm not sympathetic to squicks - I've seen/read some things that I would really, really like to unsee. But, and this is a big, hairy but; I got over it. Squicks and triggers are different animals. There is a major difference between going 'eww' and closing the window and hyperventilating/fainting/crying in the corner because of a genuine issue.
And yeah, like you say - it's the world. Bad things happen. If you can't learn to protect yourself from seeing the things that upset you, you either will eventually or you'll die of fear. Because it's not going to stop happening.
(I have been the faint-y kid, although not for the same reasons. It's no fun at all :()