Poem: Obsessive-Compulsive

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I'm not really happy with the title of this poem, but then I'm never happy with titles. I used to be tempted to leave all of my poetry untitled, but then I read somewhere that "leaving your poems untitled is like leaving your children unnamed", and ever since I've done my best to put at least a crappy title on each one I write.

I called this one "obsessive-compulsive" because I have been diagnosed (among other things...) as "mildly obsessive-compulsive", and this poem pretty much describes my thought process.



Obsessive-Compulsive

I used to think, when I was small,
that brain waves could travel like sound
waves, their atoms colliding
and spinning through space. I used to
try to shield my thoughts from prying
minds, afraid that the particles
of thought could be snatched from the air
like grapes plucked from the vine. Of course,
if this were true, then what's to stop
a galloping idea from
careening 'round the world just like
a billiard ball shot 'cross the felt
and thrust into another one
(another and another one)
until the thought comes storming back
to strike me once again?



BTW, I really did believe this when I was a child. If I were, for example, playing a trivia game and I knew the answer to someone else's question, I would try to think of something else so the answer wouldn't somehow jump from my brain to theirs. I pictured my brain vibrating the molecules in the air (the way a sound wave travels) and the other person's brain picking up the vibrations.

Of course, I don't believe this anymore, but it still occurs to me everytime I'm thinking something I don't want other people to know.